When in doubt...

Have you ever closed your eyes and wished upon a star? I have. And time stops. And i think. There is emptiness and sorrow and i need to go, i need to be... I search for that empty piece of space where nothing loves, lives or breathes. Where time doesn't exist and life could never be. And i dream. And i scream. Because i want to be heard and nothing here seems to be made for me. I don't belong and don't believe. These inner conflicts within don't allow me to be... free. But its only a conflict because of thee, because what seems to be "normal" its only abnormal to me. Because i see the unthinkable because I'm the impossible. And i laugh. And i love. Me because I'm only a soul under my skin. I define the name and what it means. My actions fulfill what it stands to be. I create what you see. I'm what thee cant understand or appreciate. When in doubt... i observe this obscure world and see life from my own calculated angle. Math allows it to be logical and magical. And I wonder. And I ask. Myself if thee can obtain the equation i can easily see. At times my world becomes that empty space where i wish i could fly, but then get dragged into the "reality" thee live upon. Not mine. Suppressed with "rules" and "laws" that mean nothing to my life. Thee know nothing passed this spherical life. Haven't you wished upon a star? I have.